Tuesday, January 26, 2010

feel

"People may not remember exactly what you did, or what you said, but they will always remember how you made them feel"

have u eva feel that way?

i do.

bila bengang sikit2, aku leh wat pekak. wat tatau. wat cam takde apepe berlaku.

bile lebih skit, aku start rase tak best. stil try to be heartless. malas amik port.

bile dah melebih2, aku start avoiding them.

i'm only a normal human being yg ade ati & perasaan. I believe it is useless when i've tried hard utk jage ati org, but at the same time, they dont give a shit of wat i feel.

I've alwaiz limit myself in any relationship. if i feel unsecure or uncomfortable with anyone, i'll back out. probably i'll put a distance between me & them. I dunt enjoy having negative ppl around me. they can be a very bad influence to me, to my mood & my day. i alwaiz keep an open mind & sincere heart towards everyone. however, once you had violated my trust & respect, i'll find it unpleasant to continue mingling around those kind of ppl. or i'll end up being a hypocrite. i'm not good in acting..

and now, the 'uncomfortable' feeling is slowly turning into hatred. without we actually know what was happening at the 1st place. see, ppl do remember how you made them feel, despite watevar you did or said..

apart

"As a working mom, I'm away from my son so much already, leaving him with a sitter to go to a movie makes me feel horrible. Going away for longer, like a weekend, would put my guilt meter right into the red.."

aku tak paham nape org senang2 kuar umah gi enjoy katak, tp tinggalkan anak kat umah ngan maid.. ape dia lupe dia dah ade anak ke? maseh feeling2 bujang agaknye..

Monday, January 11, 2010

45hari

demi memenuhi permintaan puan izpuri, ni gambo aku mase 45hari.. mama kate baru abih je pantang, terus gi PD.. tp mama dok ngan aku kat tepi pantai bwh pokok je.. ayah bawak abang gi mandi laut...
gambo ni mmg sejibik aku tgk same ngan ghupe adik.. cik kak pon same ke? :-)

Friday, January 8, 2010

all about cik kak

1. cik kak has started counting!
"apat, anam, juh, apan, yan, yohhhh...."
(empat, enam, tujuh, lapan sembilan, sepuluhhhh..)

i've already tried to teach her satu, dua, tiga & lima, but she refused to follow.. she'll only starts counting from 4... ok la tue..

2. cik kak also rajin buaikan adik dlm buai.. sambil selawat..
"LA ILAHA ILLALLAH MUHAMMADUR RASULULLAH" but in her own pelat way..
la.. ilawah.. mamad.. cuwah...
it is actually my mom who started buai budak sambil selawat.. since all our siblings were little. then, buai anak2 & anak2 buah... and, while buaikan adik, i'll put cik kak on my lap, and slowly selawat, kasik dia ikot gak.. cute!

3. cik kak already started to lurvee her brother..
each time her aunt sakat her to take adik, she'll cry to her father..
"ayahh.. wawak.. wawak atek... ayah.. wawak...."
meaning : ayah, bawak adek..

4. cik kak pon dah pandai agah adik..
"atek.. acakkk!!!.. aaaa... caaakkkk!!!"
...and adik giggles... so adorable!

Pregnancy TAG

I have 2 answers.. a during mengandungkan CIK KAK. b masa peknenkan ADIK.

1. WAS YOUR FIRST PREGNANCY PLANNED?
a. Not really. masa awal kawen, i did tell hubby i'll be ready to hv baby after April 2007 (we were married in dec2006). just because I want a whole 1st year spending time with him. alone. but after april, i believe we "struggled" *ehem* to get pregnant.. ahahahahaa
b. not really gak.. after pantang 100 hari.. ehh, 90hari jek. hahahaha.. kitorang kontrol2 sket jek. tp mmg planned to have 2nd child by the following years. no protections.. :-P

2. WHAT WAS UR 2ND CHOICE NAME OR OPPOSITE GENDER NAME?
a. Alisya (Azali+Syafa). suprising to know name tu ade makne jugak rupenye.. Protected by God.. Mula nak letak Ayra Alisya, but finally we agreed to put a very short name, and will reserve the 2nd name in the future.. (walaupon ala-ala same ngan name anak leli.. tak kire... nak jugak..) name baby boy mase tu mmg takde dlm senarai.. seb baik konfem pompuan anak aku kuar waktu tu.
b. kalo pompuan, mmg dah reserve satu tu je name - Alisya. but after knowing its gonna be a boy, aku kerah hubby utk carik gak name sbb i've gave-up nak carik name yg not to common, but good bunyik & makna.. was thinking of Ayman, tp dah ramai sgt.. termasuk la anak leli.. ahahaha

3. WHAT WERE YOUR REACTIONS?
a. it was at labuan. i was stunned to see the double line at the pregnancy test kit. i CRIED. serious. TAKOT. but i remember hubby pulled me near & hugged me tight.. laki aku eksaited giler! aku dah mananges2.. ahahahaa
b. it was at KL. same gak TAKOT. tp dah tak nanges. hehehe

4. HOW OLD WERE YOU?
a. I was 26.
b. 27.

5. HOW DID YOU FIND OUT YOU WERE PREGNANT?
a. I was a week late. Bought the pregnancy test stick at farmasi kat bandar labuan. but then tak gi klinik. waited until a month sbb nak gi check kat KL. kalo kat pulau kena gi klinik desa.. stil, aku continue gak check-up kat situ. cant forget that klinik desa.. classic.. haishh...
b. I was 2weeks late. saje tanak check smp hubby paksa. ahahaha

6. WHO DID YOU TELL FIRST?
a. My mom. Frens pon i bgtau lambat skek sbb mama said tak elok kepoh2 kat org b4 3 months. But after 3 months, aku rase cam dah basi utk story kat org.. ahahaha..
b. same as above.

7. DID YOU WANT TO FIND OUT THE SEX?
a. Tak sempat nak tny atau nak ckp jgn bitawu, sbb doktor dah terus2 ckp. ahahaha.. tp elok gak sbb bleh reserve utk carik name.
b. same gak. doktor tak menyempat nak bagitau.. ahahah

8. DUE DATE?
a. 21st Feb 2008 but ayra kuar 2nd Feb 2008. mama kate aku kuat bejalan.
b. 10th July 2009 but ayril kuar 25th June 2009. pon mama kate aku kuat bejalan. haha..

9. DID YOU HAVE MORNING SICKNESS?
a. for 2 weeks kot. giler teruk.. aku penah termuntah kat hubby mase dia dok depan aku tgk tv! tragic.. asek rase nak muntah.. siap standby air mineral wherever i go. bila loya je, stop kete, gi toilet, telan air laju2 & muntah.. pastuh kuar toilet dgn muka puas.. baru leh makan2 lak..
b. loya2 je. takde muntah langsung! org kate sbb baby boy.. :-)

10. WHAT DID YOU CRAVE?
a. gila nasi kandar. and anything berempah.. seb baik tak mintak yg susah2.. McD pon konsider susah sbb takde kat labuan.. but i did ask for kuah rojak, satu pulau hubby pusing nak carik, siap beli 2 botol terus. but i only ate it once, tu pon sikiiiittt jek.. ahahahahah
b. gila mee mamak & rojak. smp my mom said nnt muka cam mamak.. quickly i screamed NnnnnooooooO!!!!! tarik balikkkk!!! mama laughed hard.. rephrasing her words, macam shah rukh khan.. againn.. NoooOoooOoo!!!! seb baik ayril ikot muka ayah dia.. (apekah..???) ahahaha

11. WHO/WHAT IRRITATED YOU THE MOST?
a. when ppl kept making fun of me sbb aku terlalu sedeh (smp aku nanges) sbb tak dpt pindah waktu tu. diorg tak melalui ape yg aku rase, bleh la...
b. when ppl kept saying my pregnancy terlalu rapat & for sure i'll kena ceaser lagik. Alhamdulillah, I believe Allah knows better.

12. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CHILD'S SEX?
a. Girl.. nampak tak tu.. ade lobang..
b. Boy.. tu.. tionggggg...

13. DID YOU WISH YOU HAD THE OPPOSITE SEX?
a. b4 pregnant, Yes. i was hoping for the 1st child to be boy. tp dgr doktor ckp girl, doesnt change any of my feeling.. I'm grateful.
b. No. sbb nak dpt sepasang! Yeppieeee...!!

14. HOW MANY POUNDS DID YOU GAIN THROUGHOUT THE PREGNANCY?
a. 18-20 kg. After beranak hilang dlm 14-15kg.. mane lagi 4-5kg??? tertinggal kat badan! huwaaaaa....
b. lebey kurang a. gak... uwaaaaaa....

15. DID YOU HAVE A BABY SHOWER?
Nope. tak biase la dlm family aku.

16. WAS IT A SURPRISE OR DID YOU KNOW?
NA

17. DID YOU HAVE ANY COMPLICATIONS DURING YOUR PREGNANCY?
a. semua ok, alhamdulillah.. tu yg terkejut kena ceaser tuh.. ngantuks, sakit pinggang, sakit badan semua perkara biasa.
b. alhamdulillah..

18. WHERE DID YOU GIVE BIRTH?
BOTH at Hospital Tawakal. By Doc Jaafar.

19. HOW MANY HOURS WERE YOU IN LABOR?
a. 3cm opening at 9am. checked-in around 12.00pm.. 1.30pm baby's heart-beat dropped. Trus masuk OT. 2.15pm cik kak kuar. 3.30pm, aku kuar dari OT.. sejuk giler2!! smp menggigil2 aku..
b. 5cm opening at 9.30am. terus doktor soh siap2 masuk labor room. 10am++ dah start contraction yg sgt kuat smp aku rase nak mengamuk kat hubby.. ahahaha.. by 11.15am adik dah kuar..

20. WHO DROVE YOU TO THE HOSPITAL?
BOTH time, hubby la bwk.. mau nanges aku kalo hubby takde..

21. WHO WATCHED YOU GIVE BIRTH?
a. 6-7 ppl in the OT. hubby is one of them.. learning about organs in my body. ooo, he witness everything. I mean, EVERYTHING!!
b. Hubby, doc & 2nurses.. again, hubby witness EVERYTHING!! to any father-to-be who are afraid or have no idea, not a sigle clue about giving birth, p'se refer to my hubby.. ahahahahahaa..

22. WAS IT NATURAL OR C-SECTION?
a. C-sect. cord round neck.
b. Normal, Alhamdulillah.

23. DID YOU TAKE MEDICINE TO EASE THE PAIN?
a. epi sbb nak ceaser la weii.. takan tak amik apepe..
b. gas oksigen (what?) aku pon tatau, nurse soh sedut kuat2.. aku takde rase perubahan pon sedut gas tu.. sakit je jugak..

24. HOW MUCH DID YOUR CHILD WEIGH?
a. 3.14kg
b. 3.4kg

25. WHEN WAS YOUR CHILD ACTUALLY BORN?
a. 2.15pm, 2nd Feb 2008.
b. 11.15am, 25th June 2009.

26. WHAT DID YOU NAME HIM/HER?
a. Ayra (Respectable)
b. Ayril (Whom God helps)

27. HOW OLD IS YOUR FIRST BORN TODAY?
23 months young.. :-) and her brother is now 6months young..

atas : cik kak................. bawah : adik